seketika~ kak sue nak kawen dah..sy mau juga..hahha

Kak sue, my senior

dah nak kawen dah bulan 2 ni..

owh my gucci..

seronoknyer..

hehe

kita bler lg ni inche asyraf...

hikhik

teringat kata2 my inche asyraf kat mak ritu

"Insyaallah secepat mungkin la"

lpas hbs belajar ni..

dah stabil sket kiter go on la

haha

somehow seram juga ye

cmner la..

bleh dah ke nak kawen kiter ni, dear?

bnyak lagi nak prepare..

mentally especially

nak pikul tangungjwb

tak bleh over2 suka majuk mcm skrg..

well salbiah

bnyak lagi nak ready ni..

pabila bercerita sume ni dgn inche asyraf..

dia ckp.

insyaallah

awak ready dah

smpai masa nnt

insyaallah

..

u ve faith in me dont u dear?

insyaallah

haha..

bercerita psl kawen..

seram + ngilu hati dan gigi

haha

mcm tak rock je salbiah bila bercerita ttg kawen

haha

but the time will come..

insyaallah

and for that..

Salbiahhamzah kne grow up!!!!!!!!

ganbate 

and to u too inche asyraf

loads and loads of preparation..

mentally and phisically

sila jaga hati sy lps kawen nnt 

ok?

u ve promise tau..haha

a promise is a promise 

and marrige tuh..

ur promise with Allah

to take me as ur wife

and...

to take care of me 

and be with me

in sickness and in health

in rich or poor

forever

and ever

amin~

Mood gembira

Saya yg sungguh bersemangat di pagi hari

again...

kel;as Hp..

Owh  my Gucci

HUaaaaargggghhh

buhsan like hell...

gila buhsan..

tp soal hati sudah selesai..

mujurlah 

i capture asyraf's attention by being super duper moody

Happy again..

haissshhh

kejap rasa geram kat dia..

.then again , walaupun super duper marah+geram+ bengang ngan dia...

then again, hilang sume rasa tuh bila he spent time dghn me

warghhhh

he knows me too well....

i hate u, but i love..

hahaha

but 

alhamdulillah...

thanks again dear

xoxox

its been wonderful 2 years with u...

Salbiah+Asyraf

happily ever after

insyaallah

( sambil buat muka gatal)

hahahaha

current mood

Anger=50%

Depressed=75%

Sad=50%

Happy=0.5%

 feelings to smash things up= 70%

Feelings to cry all along=50%

Why.....

"Why"

Why, do you always do this to me?
Why, couldn't you just see through me?
How come, you act like this
Like you just don't care at all

Do you expect me to believe I was the only one to fall?
I can feel, I can feel you near me, even though you're far away
I can feel, I can feel you baby, why

It's not supposed to feel this way
I need you, I need you
More and more each day
It's not supposed to hurt this way
I need you, I need you, I need you
Tell me, are you and me still together?
Tell me, do you think we could last forever?
Tell me, why

Hey, listen to what we're not saying
Let's play, a different game than what we're playing
Try, to look at me and really see my heart

Do you expect me to believe I'm gonna let us fall apart?
I can feel, I can feel you near me, even when you're far away
I can feel, I can feel you baby, why

It's not supposed to feel this way
I need you, I need you
More and more each day
It's not supposed to hurt this way
I need you, I need you, I need you
Tell me, are you and me still together?
Tell me, you think we could last forever?
Tell me, why

So go and think about whatever you need to think about
Go on and dream about whatever you need to dream about
And come back to me when you know just how you feel, you feel
I can feel, I can feel you near me, even though you're far away
I can feel, I can feel you baby, why

It's not supposed to hurt this way
I need you, I need you
More and more each day
It's not supposed to hurt this way
I need you, I need you, I need you
Tell me

It's not supposed to hurt this way
I need you, I need you
More and more each day
It's not supposed to hurt this way
I need you, I need you, I need you
Tell me, are you and me still together?
Tell me, do you think we could last forever?
Tell me, why

~ still in double trouble mood all the way~

Pagi isnin yang damai ..

sunyi kelihatan fakulti FSKM UiTM...

Tapi kelihatan nya hati ni still gundah gulana...

adeh!!!!

In serious danger ni..

Still rasa tak mampu mengawal hati

dan diri..

otak penuh dgn Negative thingking..

hati usah ckp la...

dah rasa macm kne gelek stemroollllllll

hancur berkecai tahap tinggal debu jek ni..

and guess whay..sometimes rasa nak mati pun ada

it hurt damn much..

perassan yg tak mampu nak kawal..

sometimes rasa nak smash things out...

nak ddk atas bumbung...

tgk bintang..

rant all the way

haha

i hate this feelings..

kenapa ye..all the sudden

lack of attention..

and i wonder, did i ask that much?

not a 24 hours attention on me all the time

but atleast

BE SENSETIVE!!!

im a gurl, remember..

but i guess

after all...im just me..

this is how my head and my heart function...

and if u annoyed with all my bad perangai..

hunting u all the TIME..

I GUESS I SHULD REALLY GO!

is it what u want hah????

arghhhh here i go again...

double trouble feelings!!!!

ARGGGGHHHHHHHH
Hate this...

nak katil...nak slimut..nak bantal busuk..

Nak tdo all day..

tp if i do so..mak sedey nnt...

she knows me too well..

sigh...

hope this feelings end cpt2...

coz i wanna smile again..

but at current time

it hurt even more to smile

coz i aint no actress

who cant fake all day..

and not be my self..

help me plis dear god

hati oh hati...

in the name of Allah

~sad mood~

i dunno whats happening to me..
i guess i miss him too much..
am i wrong?
i cant control all this mushy2 things...
too bad...

siti salbiah hamzah is.......
hoplessly in love with asyraf zubir damn much...
and i guess when we love someone too much, it hurt to be ignored...rite?
somehow i sense that he is quite boring wif me...
betul ke...and sometime i wonder,,,..
can i hang on to these relationship?
i really hate to think that it will last..
everytime i pray ...
for us..to be able to stand for each other as husband and wife...
but somehow ....
i wonder if he want that too...
and somehow i think, he doesnt love me like i do...
am i not good enough?
for a guy like him?
or is it me?
being too close to him...'
that make him somehow annoyed with my presence in his life
or is it me?
loving him too much
and somehow i opened the window through my heart too wide...
and somehow it can easily hurt my heart
sigh~
Allah,
i wonder, is it ujian from u..
or is it the sign u gave ..so that i m prepared to loose him..
Allah, if it is not too much..
can i ask for him...to be the someone who loves me and my life partner..
pliss Allah, do not let these feelings we have for each other go away..
and pliss Allah, make these relationship blooms and..
pliss Allah, make the marriage easier for both of us..and for both of our parents and family..
Allah, i know , there is always someone who never leave me no matter what..
and i know its u..
make me stronger, Allah
i facing all the difficulities in life..and in the relationship with my family, asyraf , with the society and with my studies and career in future..make me stand strong..
and pliss Allah...bless my life in what ever i do..
and plis dear Allah..protect my family and Asyraf in what ever difficulties ,
whether realize it or not..
to u , i turn to..
and to u, i surrender my self
amin...

~lalalalala~

Andainya dapat engkau mendengarkan
Suara di hatiku melagukan rindu
Kiranya engkau mampu mentafsirkan
Setiap bait kata-kata yang terucap

Pasti dirimu kan memahami
Harapan kasih yang terbina
Sekian lama di sudut hatiku
Hanyalah untukmu

Bukanlah aku sengaja
Melindungi rasa di jiwa
Namun bimbang diri kan terleka
Hanyut dibuai angan dan mimpi indah
Hingga terabai segala cita
Sedang khayalan tak menjanjikan
Segunung kebahagiaan
Sebagai mahar hantaran

Apakah mungkin engkau mengerti
Setiap cinta yang dilafazkan
Bukanlah sekadar mainan
Tetapi sebuah janji

Andainya dapat engkau mendengarkan
Suara dihatiku melagukan rindu
Kiranya engkau bias mentafsirkan
Setiap bait kata-kata yang terungkap

Pasti dirimu dapat melihat
Rahsia kasih yang terpendam
Sekian lama di sudut hatiku
Hanyalah untukmu
Selamanya..

jadual kelas sem 5 cs220 class A

CS220 part 5(julai -septembar 2009)

isnin =10.30-12.20(ITS 544)4.00-6.00(Ecom.) 6.30-9.00 (ENT)

Selasa=10.30-12.20(ITS 462)4.00-6.00(Arab)

Rabu=10.30-12.20(ITS 462)4.00-6.00(ECom)

Khamis=8.30-10.30(ITS 510) 10.30-12.20(ITS 544)

Jumaat=8.30-10.30(ITS 510) 10.30-12.20(ITS 590)

~selamat berjuang rakan2~

a hijab story

love the video so much...coolio..hope video mcm ni dihasilkan slalu ye ....bgus untuk pembentukan jiwa anak2 remaja akan dtg dan sahabat2 remaja kita....

merenung hari2 yang telah berlalu....

saat tgh praktikal ni..mulalah melalut sbb tak der keje ..sempat lah merenung masa2 yang lalu...lalu teringat kan akan sesuatu...masakan berlalu..dah 3 tahun last time jumpe seorang sahabat ni..pnah seketika dulu dekat dengan dia..tapi kan....like peribahasa....pantai lagi kan berubah.....tu lah...tgk dia sekarang..a total change..bukan megutuk atau mengaibkan org...tapi sekadar berkongsi pengajaran...she is totally 100% change!!!not in a good way pada sy..tp pada dia maybe its a change for a good way kut..now she is totally damn SEXY!!!!dah pegi clubbing sume...harap dia tak buat la yg tak elok kan....tp sedey sgt,,,.maybe environment kita semua sudah tak sama kan....dia pn jauh dari family untuk ditegur kut...tp sedihla...rosak lagi seorang wanita ISLAM dek kerana fesyen,pengaruh barat yg memang nyata tak henti2 menggoda wanita,,,tau tak kenapa?"Yahudi merosakkan islam dari wanita..kerana apabila rosaknya wanita maka,rosaklah anak2 nya kan...anak2 nya itu adalah bakal2 pemimpin agama negara akan datang...so dengan tak langsung rosaklah islam akan datang"sedih bukan.
ye mmg saya akui,wanita mudah sangat terpedaya..nafsu yang 9...masyaallah susah nak tolakk dugaan fesyen nih..sy pun wanita,..pernah juga satu masa dlu di tempat mereka...tapi saya balik ke pangkal jalan...sbb apa?
sy tak nak anak2 sy satu hari nnt hanyut...seorang ibu pasti nak yang terbaik buat anak2 nya kan?tapi....sedangkan ibu itu sendiri rosak...mcm mana nak pimpin anak2 nnt...wanitalah tunggak baitul muslim..maka ayuhlah wanita..sedar...termasuk sy sendirilah..moga2 Allah beri kekuatan untuk menjadi muslimah sejati yang nyata banyak sungguh dugaan nya,..namun bukan kan org2 beriman itu akan sentiasa diuji..bukan?hehe.kepada sahabat yang seorang itu,moga2 1 hari nnt Allah bukalah pintu hatinya untuk berubah...amin...

p/s:ada sedikit bahan ini diciplak dari kata2 inche asyraf saya terhadap nasihat nya pada sy...syukran my dear...