hati oh hati...

in the name of Allah

~sad mood~

i dunno whats happening to me..
i guess i miss him too much..
am i wrong?
i cant control all this mushy2 things...
too bad...

siti salbiah hamzah is.......
hoplessly in love with asyraf zubir damn much...
and i guess when we love someone too much, it hurt to be ignored...rite?
somehow i sense that he is quite boring wif me...
betul ke...and sometime i wonder,,,..
can i hang on to these relationship?
i really hate to think that it will last..
everytime i pray ...
for us..to be able to stand for each other as husband and wife...
but somehow ....
i wonder if he want that too...
and somehow i think, he doesnt love me like i do...
am i not good enough?
for a guy like him?
or is it me?
being too close to him...'
that make him somehow annoyed with my presence in his life
or is it me?
loving him too much
and somehow i opened the window through my heart too wide...
and somehow it can easily hurt my heart
sigh~
Allah,
i wonder, is it ujian from u..
or is it the sign u gave ..so that i m prepared to loose him..
Allah, if it is not too much..
can i ask for him...to be the someone who loves me and my life partner..
pliss Allah, do not let these feelings we have for each other go away..
and pliss Allah, make these relationship blooms and..
pliss Allah, make the marriage easier for both of us..and for both of our parents and family..
Allah, i know , there is always someone who never leave me no matter what..
and i know its u..
make me stronger, Allah
i facing all the difficulities in life..and in the relationship with my family, asyraf , with the society and with my studies and career in future..make me stand strong..
and pliss Allah...bless my life in what ever i do..
and plis dear Allah..protect my family and Asyraf in what ever difficulties ,
whether realize it or not..
to u , i turn to..
and to u, i surrender my self
amin...